“I think you’re either born simple or you’re born me.”
You don’t get to call me a whore. When I met you, I thought I had found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was done. So all the boys, and all the bars, and all the obvious daddy issues, who cared? Because I was done. You left me. You chose Addison. I’m all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke. You don’t get to call me a whore.
You get home from a long day at work and turn on the TV. It’s been a long week, so you think to yourself- maybe i’ll take the family to a movie on Saturday. Maybe we’ll even go on a vacation soon! We could visit museums and go to plays and see all sorts of fun attractions.
When you turned the TV on, nothing happened. There are no actors to entertain you.
When you went to the movie theater, nothing was showing. There were no advertisements to tell you that anything was showing, so you went to the theater to find out. Nothing playing. There is no one to film and create movies for you. Well at least your vacation will be fun, right? Not like there will be any plays to see and there won’t be anything in the art museums.
Well at least you have the shack you are living in that you made out of cardboard and sheets.
Not like you could find an architect to build you a house with all the money you’re making as an engineer.“Medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for.”
— Dead Poets Society
Looking at the graduation pictures I gave Andy in 2010. I don’t even recognize that girl anymore. So much has changed… So much ups and downs.
Sometimes I wonder if I miss that girl; all smiles, no worries. The biggest decision back then was if I should go to USC or UCR. Tennis was a weekly thing. Running was everything. A’s were the norm. But a caged bird.
I can only hope that the person I am now, though lacking all the qualities of the girl above, is one that I’ll be proud of.
I just need to remember that its the struggle that makes you stronger. And keep on pushing through <3
Missed bio due to dealing with the legalities of where I was parking my car in the structure cause someone said it was there spot too. Lab for ochem not finished to hectic night yesterday. I’ve got to run to the toyota dealership at 1, I’m supposed to be in pasadena at 2, but I have a test in riverside at 6:40pm. I don’t know whats going on right now -___-. Conflicts up the butt.
Just have to wait for Andy to text me back and see what we can do. But God puts us through hard times to test us. I’m pushing through because I have to. I’m just happy that I have the most supportive boyfriend who helps with everything.
if you owe me more than $500 and claim you are broke
but bought a nice brand new car
yet, that money from all the loans you pulled out
and still you complain about how much credit card debt you are in
but still you can just rant on how you bought this and thought
which you clearly can’t buy
Dear “good old friend”,
First off, if you’d like to “sue me in court”, please look up what you’d have to do first, because you have no legal ground, and no binding contracts under which to even do so since the money you paid was while under your name on the lease and the money never physically touched my hands nor did it go through my accounts. (and to take this through small claims court would cost you far more money than i owe you). And please get your facts straight on everything, because obviously you are confused. I don’t even pay my “super expensive brand new car” on my own, my boyfriend helps pay for it. Oh tell me smart one, what else I’ve bragged about buying because all I’ve bought was the car and the parking permit to THE APARTMENT. And ignoring your messages? I texted you back to every text, sure one was delayed because I WAS AT WORK. You are continuously stressing me over a matter I have no control over right now. Stop saying that “its been over a year since you haven’t paid me back”, we had agreed sometime in the fall or in july that I would pay you back, but you didn’t know I had to pay july’s rent, so the money I saved to give you has to go toward that. So technically it hasn’t been a year of me not paying you back if we never agreed to me paying you back any sooner than july or when financial aid reimburses. I have the messages to prove it too; please research your shit. And honestly, I would like you to stick to one story because you changing it all the time is frankly getting annoying. First you say you got the money from your financial aid last year, then last month you say you took it out of your savings, now you say your grandparents gave you the money. Please straighten out your stuff.
Don’t worry I’ll pay you back, I never intended not to. But please stop acting like i shit golden bricks that are worth millions, cause you don’t even honestly know me or what is going on in my life. When I tried to tell you, you call it excuses, so whats the point. When financial aid tells me how much I get, ill let you know the projected date of when i can pay you.
Oh and next time, don’t come to my apartment unannounced. You were even lucky I was there because I had to skip my friends graduation last minute due to a work related issue. And if you ever do try to do something like that, have the balls to do it on your own and not bring 2 other people with you.
